But choosing to let go of something that I had wanted for so long and something that was a part of me for so long, how could I possibly do that? I went back and forth for weeks with the decision and fear really took a hold on me. Slowly, God revealed to me that He had made me for more, for Himself.

I felt like I was a son that was so far away and there was nothing I could do to receive such love. Yet our Father calls me worthy and all I had to do was to be loved.